Currently.

  

Loving: floral halos by That Madonna Girl. Michelle, who runs TMG, sent me over a few new designs to check out. I'm pretty much in love + spent an hour playing with my hair last weekend [E was not amused, especially when I was doing it when we had someplace to be]. I have to go to my internship after work tomorrow, so I'm trying to figure out what outfit to wear, so I can sport one of my floral halos. :)

Reading: school related things, blogs + The Graveyard Book, for the digital book discussion Sarina started. So far, I’m only a few pages in, but I can tell this is going to be awesome. If you'd like to join Read + Rant, click that link + sign up!

Watching: a whole lot of nothing. The only time I’ve watched anything lately is the television on the elliptical or the treadmill at the gym. Although when I babysat last week, I watched Dolphin Tale, which was pretty cute [based on a true story as well].

Thinking about: the fact that I am going to be thirty + still don’t have a real job. I know, the field I went into is hard to secure a job – that’s why I went straight to grad school [I took a few years off from school in mid-twenties, in order to experience life + figure things out]. Still, I feel pretty useless at times + wonder if all of that time I took to enjoy myself was worth it. Sometimes I think too much, and this is one of those situations. I have also been thinking about what the heck to do for the big 3-0. I told Erich that we should just go bowling, but he said I should do something else, since this is a milestone. I'm totally stuck on this one. Help!

Stressing about: Student teaching in less than a week [again], registering for two state exams [I was under the assumption that it was only one], student loans, work [+ the lack thereof while student teaching], bills, not having health insurance, etc. Basically everything. I know I need to take everything day by day, but when you’re an over thinker who has anxiety, its easier said than done.

Looking forward to: spending the afternoon with one of the littles – we are going to paint her nails, have lunch together, + watch shows [all of these were her ideas]. Part of their birthday presents is to spend an afternoon with me, doing whatever they’d like. After Dom died, I knew that I needed to spend more time with them. I figured having a special day with them, doing what they wanted, could be a special birthday tradition. If anything ever happens to me, I want them to remember that I loved them with all of my heart + have something to reflect back on.

Making me happy: starting up a workout routine again. I fell off the wagon this summer + just got back into it again. I won’t be able to get back into the gym until tomorrow night due to work, internship + school [I wanted to go today, but I dropped a knife on my toe + that threw a wrench in everything I wanted to do today], but being able to zone out + just concentrate on my reps or the captions streaming across the television while I use the elliptical helps. Hopefully, I’ll be able to catch a yoga class this week, because I really need to get my ohm on.