I wrote this piece back on February 23. It saved this as a draft, because I wanted to revisit it at a later date. My headspace was swimming with so much at that point in time. While contemplating my future, I decided a change of scenery was needed + planned an impromptu trip to California. Things have been non-stop since returning home + I only got a chance to look again today. At first, I was tempted to edit, but decided to leave it alone. It needs to be seen how it swirled through my mind - slightly choppy, a little repetitive, but real.
Life can be weird + strange. People can walk into your life one day + flip things upside down, which can be a good thing. Might be a bad thing. But its something. Its living.
A few years ago, someone very dear to my heart was gone in an instant. That moment was one of the biggest wake up calls of my life. That was the day I decided to start being more mindful + living the life I deserved.
Sometimes you just need to take a leap of faith. Trust your gut. Fuck the "what ifs" - stare them right in the face + see whats there. If its not what you expected or what you want, at least you took the risk. Plus, its quite the adrenaline rush. It can be really scary, I know. But we are so much stronger than we realize.
I'm a firm believer in the fact that things unfold how they're supposed to. You can try + fool the universe, but in the end, what is supposed to happen will happen. We don't know what tomorrow has in store. If we will even see tomorrow. So get out there + experience life. I swear, its worth it.
Wise words. I had similar reactions to the unexpected deaths of my brother and mother. Traumas like that shake us to our core and force re-examination of how we're living. Which is usually good 'cause it awakes us from sleepwalking through life.ReplyDelete